I’ve lost close to 100 pounds, and some days I still don’t recognize the guy looking back at me in the mirror.
I’ve worn kilts for over 20 years. As I got less healthy, I kept buying bigger ones. So I made myself a promise: new kilts when I got under 300 pounds. When I finally hit it and placed the order, they were about six sizes smaller. I was nervous. I knew what the tape measure said, but part of me still didn’t believe it.
When they arrived, I put one on and cried. For maybe the first time, I really saw how different I look.
That’s what this video is about: body dysmorphia, and the gap between what’s real and what our brains are willing to accept. People tell me I look different, and I don’t always see it. In my head, I’m sometimes still the unhealthy fat guy. I’m still a big guy, 6’2″ and 300 pounds, but I’m not who I used to be.
It’s Halloween, the day we put on masks. So here’s my question for you: are you still wearing a costume in your own head? Are you still the person you used to be, or are you giving yourself credit for the work you’ve done and the person you are today?
I want to hear from you. If you’re further along this road than I am, how did you take in the new you? And if you’re struggling with body image right now, reach out. Leave a comment here or on YouTube, or email me at jason@iusedtobebigger.com. You’re not alone in this.
No shaming here, ever. Just real talk about getting healthy.
May all the masks you wear be the ones you choose to wear.
— Jason
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